You Don't Understand Now What I Am Doing, but Someday You Will

"UGH! I cannot believe he changed plans on me. Again. Like seriously, does he not understand how much I was looking forward to this??"

I heave out a huge sigh as I try and calm myself down.

As I relax into the back of my desk chair, my eyes wandering around looking for something to fixate upon, eventually coming to stare out the window that is to my right, my thoughts ramble together, a whole heaping muddling mess of emotions--mainly that of frustration, anger,  and resentment, but most of all: disappointment.

How many times has this ever happened to you?

If you know me well enough, you will know that I am very big on planning. I think the fact that I own (shhh) several planners, is a testament itself to just how much I love it. The structure of knowing when and where things are going to happen, gives me some form of security. The knowledge that every month, my bank account will automatically transfer my rent into my landlords account, is such a satisfying feeling.

But with all that structure and planning, what happens when one thing is out of place?

Being the perfectionist that I am, naturally, the slightest change in a plan, or if something doesn't work out the way I want it to, can literally drive me bonkers. Just ask my boyfriend or any of my close friends, I promise, they will vouch for me. Yikes. Kinda scary thinking about when I put it into words like that.

The problem? This isn't the way God intended us to live.

Yes, making plans does help make things easy. It gives you a peace of mind when things are in order and everything is as it should be, but when it all falls apart, will you fall apart too?

In the Bible, we learn that one of the most important things, simply put, is to have faith. But often times, as things become chaotic, one thing piling up after another, we lose sight of this vision. We know that we should trust Him--week after week, pastors drill this into our head-- and it all seems simple when you're sitting there in church on a chilly Sunday morning, the worries of the week not yet on the horizon and we agree to this. The second we wake up the next morning, however, all the worries and doubts and troubles flood your mind, and that simple mantra of having faith, falls deep into the back of your mind, until the next Sunday, when the pastor reminds you of it.

True, it is a LOT easier said than it is done. So many times we try to take things into our own hands--doing life the way we want to, not the way He intended us to. We get frustrated when things don't go according to our own plans, but did you ever stop and think why this is so?

Maybe because this wasn't the way God intended things to be for you. Yes, maybe you are meant to visit the Colosseum one day, but maybe that day is not in this year, or in the next. Yes, you want to be a successful entrepreneur, your salary in the high digits (come on, who doesn't want that?) but maybe that job interview you went to yesterday, isn't the job that will get you there.

We focus so much on the things that WE want for ourselves, that we lose sight of the things that God has planned for us--the abundance, the grace, the never ending love--the life that He has chosen for us.

We lose focus and we don't understand why things don't go according to how we want them to, but that's just the thing. It's not supposed to be whenever we want it. You can pray for a puppy for Christmas, but odds are you're not going to get it immediately. God works in mysterious ways.

My best advice for a stress and worry free life?

Trust in Him. 

Trust in His timing. He knows what He is doing. Just wait for things to fall into place and don't try to force things to be.

"For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.In those days when you pray, I will listen. If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me. I will be found by you,” says the Lord. “I will end your captivity and restore your fortunes. I will gather you out of the nations where I sent you and will bring you home again to your own land.”
-Jeremiah 29:11-14 NLT

It's a lot harder than it sounds, but I promise, the second you let go of the things of this world that you so badly want, things will start to look up.

Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
-2 Corinthians 12:9-10 NLT

Be blessed

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